“This
is who I am. This is what I want.”
Scarier
still is standing by the truth about ourselves – our integrity –
as
we must when we give the other person
a
choice to accept or not accept our decisions and differences. . .
But
remember we're asking for something that is absolutely reasonable:
We
want the other person
to stop manipulating us.
to stop manipulating us.
Susan
Forward,
In considering
the act of repentance, we've
already noted that though repentance must always be followed with
forgiveness, when the offending party uses repentance as “an
occasion to the flesh” (entitlement to continue selfishly hurting
others), it causes the wounded party to suffer additional injustice
and harm. We are also required to confront those who have harmed us.
In the chronic
situations of offense in my own life, I felt like those who asked me
to accept repentance in word only which was not followed up with
congruent actions that lived out that contrition over the harm I
suffered, I believed that the person asked me to honor them more than
I honored God. This becomes a form of idolatry. I was created in
God's Image, and with that comes a responsibility to honor and care
for my own reasonable needs for safety and peace. I believe that
when we are asked to suffer chronic injustice, we dishonor ourselves
and that responsibility that we have to care for ourselves lovingly.
True repentance with contrition which is followed by action brings
honor not only to the offended but also honors God as well as
justice. The reverse is also true: those who disregard justice show
great dishonor to others, God, and that which is good, making a
mockery of them all. By accepting disingenuous repentance as grounds for exoneration or reconciliation, we risk
enabling those in this mockery.
In this part of the journey, we determine what we are willing to risk by discerning the sincerity of the person who offers repents for the wrongs they've done. If we determine that our offender's repentance is disingenuous, we have to move into a different type of path of healing in forgiveness. Here we begin the careful soul searching, considering whether we want to cancel the debt, release the person and the debt to God as an act of obedience to prevent bitterness in our hearts, and/or possibly break off from further contact with this person to prevent further strife.
In this part of the journey, we determine what we are willing to risk by discerning the sincerity of the person who offers repents for the wrongs they've done. If we determine that our offender's repentance is disingenuous, we have to move into a different type of path of healing in forgiveness. Here we begin the careful soul searching, considering whether we want to cancel the debt, release the person and the debt to God as an act of obedience to prevent bitterness in our hearts, and/or possibly break off from further contact with this person to prevent further strife.
Though we
are called to be as innocent as doves, we are also required to
exercise sound wisdom and judgment as we relate to others with the
shrewdness of the serpent, our adversary. The
Proverbs alone offer us so many examples of this type of wisdom
in our daily lives that we can barely note them all here. When
making decisions about how to proceed with forgiveness into the Path
of Healing, we must wisely discern our own needs as well as the
sincerity of those who have repented to us. If we have lived under
family dysfunction and if we are working through disagreements with
those who continue to harm us, we must learn what genuine repentance
looks like so that we can protect ourselves when we face those smug
and entitled people who offer us less than what we as well as the
Image of God in us deserves.
True
Contrition Leading to Change
Contrition
describes the remorse and regret that we feel for having done
something wrong, and it should characterize all true repentance. A
previous
post also noted that the Hebrew term for repentance derives from
words that define contrition. In
Latin, the term means “crushed by guilt,” connoting a
grinding process.
But Paul tells the Church at Corinth that godly
repentance requires something more than just mere contrition, noting
that our limited human regret falls short. “For
godly sorrow produces repentance leading
to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world
produces death.” (2
Corinthians 7:10) This single verse
alone condemns those who offer empty lip service by repenting without
changing their heart toward those whom they've offended, feeling
regret for the hurt that they've caused them, continuing to repeat
the same offenses, over and over. The Message Bible does a
fine job explaining this godly repentance in this way:
I know I distressed you greatly with my letter. Although I felt awful at the time, I don’t feel at all bad now that I see how it turned out. The letter upset you, but only for a while. Now I’m glad—not that you were upset, but that you were jarred into turning things around. You let the distress bring you to God, not drive you from him. The result was all gain, no loss. Distress that drives us to God does that. It turns us around. It gets us back in the way of salvation. We never regret that kind of pain. But those who let distress drive them away from God are full of regrets, end up on a deathbed of regrets. 2 Corinthians 7:9-10, The Message
Fruit of
Humility. In addition to heartfelt sorrow for what others
have suffered that results in changes in our behavior, true
repentance brings about other fruit in the life of the one who
repents. “The sacrifices of God are a broken
spirit, a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.”
(Psalm
51:17). We will manifest the fruit of virtue and love when we
find humility. Those who do not repent hold on to their pride, and
they really don't regret their sin. Here is where the entitlement
comes in. They lack fear of God and a true understanding of what
their wrongdoing has done. Even with knowledge of their sin, they
flatter
themselves in their own minds and esteem of self. With this
consideration, one might say that the degree to which a person hates
the sin they committed, a manifestation of their fear of God, is a
good monitor of the degree of their repentance.
Signs of
Genuine Repentance
Pastor Steve
Cornell who writes extensively on the subject of forgiveness at his
blog, Wisdom For Life,
offers
us a picture of what true repentance in action looks like:
The offender:
- Accepts full responsibility for his or her actions. (Instead of: “Since you think I’ve done something wrong…” or “If have done anything to offend you…”).
- Welcomes accountability.
- Does not continue in the hurtful behavior or anything associated with it.
- Does not have a defensive attitude about his or her being in the wrong.
- Does not have a light attitude toward his or her hurtful behavior.
- Does not resent doubts about his or her sincerity – nor the need to demonstrate sincerity — especially in cases involving repeated offenses.
Makes restitution where necessary.
In this MUST READ post, Cornell goes on to list common lines that the unrepentant offering lip service can give to manipulate those they've wronged.
We can also consider these characteristics of true repentance when we approach others whom we've offended. We are all human and are always offending one another on some level. We are always learning more about how to grow in righteousness and love, and we learn more about the depths of the state of our hearts. Conflict and offense reveal these motives and attitudes to us, both in ourselves and others. As in the prior post, I would again like to stress the importance of patience in the process, because repentance is a journey of its own. We must be patient when those we have offended express doubts about our sincerity, for this is wisdom at work as their heart changes and responds. As Cornell points out for us, this is especially important in situations where we have been offended and hurt many times over. Perhaps these considerations are most helpful to us when addressing chronic offenses in dysfunctional, shame-based relationships.
Before Proceeding on to
Reconciliation
Though we must discern how serious
people are with us when they repent after they've hurt us, these
considerations do not give us license to deny forgiveness to anyone.
The sincerity of someone's approach to repentance and the degree to
which they live out the works of restoration helps us make decisions
about whether we can move on to reconciliation, if it is appropriate.
We may consider other alternatives which help us cope with repeated
offenses, such as avoiding the offender or setting limits with them.
These items will be topics of discussions in further posts.
Remember that forgiveness means making
a choice to give up on your right to collect on a debt owed to you.
Regardless of the sincerity of the offender's repentance or whether
they even repent at all, it is still possible to move on to
forgiveness by releasing the debt of restitution that they owe to you. In posts to come, we will
examine ways in which we can move on to the next step in the process,
regardless of the outcome within the relationship.
Additional Reading
Though discussed briefly in this
previous post, the reader interested in this aspect of
forgiveness with benefit from
this discussion of Joseph and the wisdom he exercised when
forgiving and eventually reconciling with his brothers.
Some often repent, yet never reform;they resemble a man traveling in a dangerous path,who frequently starts and stops, but never turns backBonnell Thornton
More
to come on repentance,
justice
versus mercy,
and
pitfalls in the process of forgiveness.