from HephzibahGirls.com
I
sorted laundry into piles, the chug chug chug of the washing machines
behind me gave the mundane task a pleasant rhythm. The sun streamed
through the window and the smell of bleach and detergent made even the
moist heavy air feel clean.
Ruffled
baby jumpers, gym uniforms, my husbands work clothes and my sons
Spiderman pajamas. Each item reminded me that in the midst of this
tedious labor was the dream. Imperfect for sure, my large exuberant
family filled my days with happiness and filled my heart with love.
Frustration
broke the mood as I spotted the diaper bag from last week’s trip to
church. The bag was turned over on it’s side, the contents spilling out
of the open zipper. There, half exposed, was the dreaded plastic bag.
I could see beads of moisture inside the bag that had fermented for
days in the sunny room. The bag held two year old Luke’s wet pants and
underwear from an accident on Sunday.
I
took a deep breath and opened the bag. The smell exploded in my face.
Sharp urine and pungent, noxious mildew mixed with a faint scent of
detergent and the sweet warm puppy smell of a busy toddler. Suddenly, I
was in another place.
My heart pounded, the world was spinning, a meaty hand shoved my face
onto the floor. I was aware of the other woman, the one straddling my
legs, messing with my skirt.
I gasped, cold rough hands groped my calves and thighs.
I tried to squirm or kick but the woman squatting on my legs had them
pinned. The large woman on my back grunted as she held my hands above
my head, her knees were a vise that smashed my face into the stale, old
fashioned, blue shag rug.
I was aware of a peculiar and distinctive smell in this room as soon
as I had entered it moments before. Now; face planted in the sea of
blue and green flecks, helpless, panic overwhelmed my senses. Were
they lifting my skirt?
What was happening?? What were they doing to me?
Immobilized and vulnerable, I realized I knew the smell, a pungent mixture of urine and sweat. FEAR.
Pastor Williams loomed above me. I felt his presence but could not
see him. The air whistled and he let out a grunt of exertion.
Whack!
The
board hit my backside with such force I could not even scream. I
desperately sucked air back into my lungs even as I was aware of the
whoosh of another blow descending.
Whack!
I screamed.
I thought of the pretty street lined with lovely Tudors with
manicured lawns right outside that closed and shuttered window. Only a
few feet from me was a sunny day and regular people going about their
regular lives.
I was dragged to my feet. Each of the female captors had a vise grip on my upper arms. My legs felt like spaghetti.
“Sue”, I looked up at Pastor Williams’ face, he was smiling, yes
smiling. His thick grey hair and broad face made him look as harmless
as Gomer Pyle, deeply etched laugh lines made him look downright jovial.
He chuckled. Shaking his head as if amused at the antics of a beloved toddler.
“Sue, no-one can hear you. I will just keep going until you are quiet. OK, Sue?”
“OK,” I managed to respond in a low strangled whisper.
“What was that?”
The bigger goon who held my upper arm pinched hard.
“Yes Sir.”
“Now lay back down and take your punishment like a good girl.”
There was no way out- the women expertly maneuvered me back to the
face down position on the floor. Once again one straddled my legs and
the other sat on my upper back pinning me to the floor and holding my
arms above my head.
While we assumed the complex position Pastor Williams spoke to me,
his pleasant , cheerful voice belied the malice of his words,
“You
are a runner Sue, but there is no where to run here. The neighbors are
my friends and have returned many naughty girls who have tried to go to
them for help. The police also are good friends of mine and bring back
every misguided girl who manages to escape. Your days of running are
over.”
He laughed.
I heard the whistle of the board slicing through the air.
